- 42 yrs. old and just finding out i have ADHD. it hurt, but it didnt hurt. it hurts because i didnt have parents to see this in my childhood. it doesn't hurt because i know that this is a gift and not a curse. just need to slowdown, just started seeing a therapist and studing this gift that i have, keep in mind this hurt me for 42 yrs. but lets look at the bright side i will not allow it to take 42 more yrs. i will be going back to the therapist to talk and learn more, until i start my meds, studying about this as well as finding out released alot of stress.
- I've known I've had ADHD since 4th grade. I went through various medications that were miracle helps for school. In high school, I knew enough about myself and how I worked that I was able to cope more readily without it. (I kind of needed to sometimes, because the meds that worked best were appetite suppressants). When I moved out at 18, I didn't have the money to get my (much needed) ADHD medication and learned to live with my racing thoughts, short attention span, etc and it was difficult. Mostly I over organized everything to the point of OCD. Now I'm in college and I'm realizing just how much I need to be back on some kind of medication. The frustrations and tears are not worth it and not being able to find the focus within myself for class is unbearable.
- —Guest Rose
- I work in an office and always had a very hard time with English and sitting still in class. I am not sure if it is ADD. Sometimes I can focus on more than one thing at a time and out pace most people around me. Other times it seems like I have 7 billion horse power and no steering wheel. I often wonder if it is a sleep issue or if it is this problem. I intend to get checked for a sleep problem.
- —Guest Dan also
I think I have ADD
- I really feel like I have ADD but I haven't been tested for it. I am in my 5th year in university. I've felt this way from as far as I can remember (at least since grade 4 or 5). But I'm really starting to notice more and more as time goes by. My brain always feels cloudy and foggy. I am always thinking of 5 different things at once. I have to get people to repeat themselves all the time because I either didn't hear them or wasn't paying attention. I am always late for things (class and assignment). I procrastinate for everything!! I procrastinate to the point where even when I have something due the next day, or even the same day, I procrastinate or get distracted. For example, I knew ahead of time I was supposed to read a book and do a seminar on it and I left it too late and thought I could do it only to realize I was too over-whelmed and nervous to even attempt getting it done and I ended up telling my teacher the day of (for a 4th year university class) that I couldn't finish it.
- —Guest Lisa
- Recently I realized that when my husband and I disagree it doesn't mean I am wrong. I am a mother of three teenagers(young adults). Two are diagnosed with ADHD- different symptoms- I was diagnosed after they were in the past couple of years. I went through a mourning stage- what could I have accomplished in life if this was addressed at an earlier age. I turned to alcohol and excitement during my teenage years. I am now sober over 15 years. The steps I have taken with a sponsor have helped me a lot with my ADHD symptoms which has been helpful with relating with people and life on life's terms. I take adderall which has helped in many ways, some behaviors are still needing attention. I recently changed health care and have coverage for seeing a psychologist. No local psychiatrists in the area. I have hope to continue to learn and grow into the woman I deserve to be today for myself and those around me. Especially my husband and children. Learning more about myself each day grateful.
- —Guest 40+ & accepting myself most of the time
Social nets insufficient
- I feel a little better reading these posts but I want to bring something to light here. I've been looking for adult resources for ADHD for *expletive* years. A great deal of the knowledge I maintain about my disorder I had to learn since I've seen so many psychiatrists and psychologists that DO NOT KNOW HOW TO HELP. You google ADHD in adults? Oh guess what....help for your kids, help for your teens.... oh here's some idiotic holistic BULL. The answers I require lie in the neurochemistry and unless I understand this disorder down to the neuron, I will remain feeling helpless and misunderstood.
- —Guest captain_asparagus
Why Don't I Get Temper Tantrums, Part 75
- Okay, one more thing and I swear to god I'll shut up. I've read a lot of these posts and I want to say THANK YOU to all of you. We may never meet but I get and understand each and every one of these posts, and we are out here in cyber space feeling your pain! Just know that...
Why Don't I Get Temper Tantrums, Part 1
- TO GUEST JAMIE BLAKE! You are cracking me up!! I'm a May Gemini, and YES! That is the "excuse" I've been using for years! All ADDers are natural Geminis. In astrology they talk about how "lucky" we are to be multi-talented. That always gives me a laugh. More like jack-of-all-trades, master of none, another joke I use with people. BTW, tonight I'm supposed to be working on my script about a woman who has ADD, and I'm having more fun writing in the blog. *SIGH* When will I learn....
Why Don't I Get Temper Tantrums, Part 3
- And can we talk about boredom. OH MY GOD! The boredom. I ain't Meryl Streep, but I've been acting for a while, and know a thing or two. Watching a beginning actor get up and hack through a scene is torture for me. I behave, I remind myself I was that actor for a long time, and people had patience with me, but WOW, it's so painful. Other big problem: if you haven't noticed already, I know I talk too much. But I'm an actor and a writer and an English major - I'VE GOT OPINIONS. WHY AREN'T I LIKE EVERYONE ELSE?! I feel like I think faster than everyone else, but I sure as hell know I'm not smarter than everyone else. To those of you out there who are older - remember that ad for the United Negro College Fund in the '60's? "...because a mind is a terrible thing to waste." I've got things to do, scripts to write and act in, acting jobs to chase, songs to write, guitar to practice, and this damn disease screws me up. Oh, I can go on, as you all well know, just needed to vent.
Why Don't I Get Temper Tantrums, Part 2
- Contrary to what I am reading on this website, I'm overly sensitive to the verbal and physical clues of other people. I'm better at it than most. So how did I master this skill when I have ADD (believe me I've been diagnosed.) I am an actor, and we are taught to use every trick in the book to re-create real emotion. However, get this: we are also taught to "live in the moment." I didn't even know what that meant at first. I now do - it's the golden Nirvana all actors want to achieve, but SO HARD for us ADDers. Other problem - all actors must take class, all the time, unless you are working all the time. SO I have a very good teacher, but acting classes are structured so that two actors do a scene, then the teacher coaches the actors. This is where the talking starts, and my god, it goes on FOREVER AND FOREVER. I'm 52 years old and I swear to god it's all I can do to sit there and not run out of the room screaming for relief from the constant talking. ACTING IS DOING. BUT, this is a necessary component of the acting class.
- I quit everything I had been doing to cope, and got a job...but when I started my job, I found myself right back where I was in school. Unable to focus, organize, and not getting it. I convinced myself I was lazy, and stupid. I stayed at that job, and went on maternity leave when I had my daughter, and I never could have imagined how ADD would get in the way of my good intentions as a mother. Becoming a mom was and still is, the best thing I have ever done, but I found myself not only exhausted, but unable to do simple things for us like planning far enough ahead to go out for an entire day without forgetting things, couldn't plan out meals, couldn't get how mothers did all of this, and kept a clean, sane home. My family just made fun of me, and called me lazy, unorganized, lack of memory and punctuality. Relationships always failed...I could go on forever about how it's affected my life, but I'm just glad I found this site and read your stories. Thanks.
- —Guest Amy
Wow! It's all starting to make sense now
- I am 26 years old, just diagnosed with ADD 2 days ago. Looking back, I KNOW I've had ADD as far back as I can remember. When I turned 16, I turned to drugs, and alcohol, because I felt so stupid, for dropping out of high school, because it felt like everyone else "got it" but me. I would sit in class, staring at my teachers, writing on the board, and literally have NO idea what they were even talking about, because I hadn't been able to focus long enough. I would talk so much through public school, my grade 4 teacher made my desk face a window in the portable, and put a box around me, so I couldn't disrupt my friends, with my constant jokes, and talking. I was always so antsy as a kid, and unfocused. I've always had problems with sleeping, because my thoughts never stop. When I found out I was having my daughter, who is now 7, I moved to a new city, got a job, and was really excited, and felt ready, for the first time in my life, to focus so I could be a good mother, and provide a stable great life for my baby....con't
- —Guest Amy
- I was diagnosed with ADHD in 2005. I never saw it coming. I was forgetting names of things and people during conversations. I was always articulate with a sharp mind. Completing a task became a struggle and I stopped being able to filter out distractions around me. Finally I went to see neurologist because I thought I had Alzheimer's ...lol! Fast forward 8 yrs. Now I am a newlywed! My husband is a stickler for details and I can't remember sh*t. It's like getting in a boxing ring with no gloves or skills. Each time I get knocked out. He says I never listen to anything and it drives him crazy that I have selective hearing. When he's really angry he spells out words to me...talk about feeling like crap! Until marriage I tried to forget about ADHD. Now I have to address it. I plan to give him literature and possibly take meds. He thinks he has it bad...I wish he could be on the receiving end of his wrath. Thanks to all for sharing..it helps to know I am not alone!
- —Guest Vidette
Having ADHD while in school
- All my life I have been made fun of but have never known why. I was different, I not only dressed different but I acted different with being overly hyper. I had (and still do) trouble focusing in school and would often daydream. I get easily confused and it takes me a long time to read and understand a book. You see I have ADHD, and it has not been kind to me. I have lost so many friends due to the fact that I have no impulse control and that I will just act out. My mom never believed me when I told her something was wrong with me so I was never put on medication until now, and I am 17. I had no friends, none. I had a scare few here and there but only for a short time, it wasn't until between my freshman and sophomore years of high school i started making real friends. I still have trouble with the ADHD, as it complicates things in school for me. And ever since the kids in my school found out there has been more. But I know someday my imagination and creative writing will get me somewhere.
- —Guest Kat
Add im sure waiting to get tested!
- In school I had highest late record in the whole school. I got distracted with everything and lost track of time. College I never finished and would walk out of lectures as so bored and could not sit. Traveling I could not decide where to go so I went up and down the west coast spontaneous outbursts...Same with recent travels to South America, went alone on a whim, got into some dodgy situations ran out of money as I couldn't control finances and just basically never had a plan...Change my mind on career and men all the time! This year alone it's been teaching (where they finally told me I may have something) Spanish and photography, all of which I never finished. Cant hold down job. People say I'm funny and say funny things. Love to be around me but when they get close they think I am crazy!! I start the washing up, next minute I'm reading a paper, I don't finish what I'm reading then I'm taking a photo. Then I'm making tea, I boil the kettle then forget and go on the Internet.
- —Guest Hab ba